Control

So I think I might be a control freak...I'm not crazy about it. I just like to have control of any situation I find myself in. This past week work has been crazy because I've been trying to focus on my new job of organizing our election coverage, but at the same time still be involved on the assignment desk. It is so upsetting to me for people to ask me questions that I would normally have the answer to, but not to know because I haven't been dealing with it.

Thursday our other assignment editor is gone, so I'm running the show and I'm actually looking forward to it. Why? Because it means I am in control, I am not getting yelled at for decisions I didn't make. If something goes wrong it's my fault, but if I plan correctly only a few things will go wrong (if nothing went wrong, well that just won't happen in TV news). I think I would like a job where I have less responsiblity some days, but it seems that no matter where I go, I end up in charge of something. I can't run from responsibility. I'm not sure why.